Why can’t this paper write itself?!? Yesterday as I was at the library trying NOT to fall asleep, I was reminded of how 8 years ago, I told someone vehemently, “I am definitely NOT going to do a Master’s.” The future-oriented me couldn’t wait to start working but here I am, sadly writing away.
On the bright side, I know I’m here because Jesus led me onto this path. I told Him I would like to do a Master’s and would He provide for it? Bam! Job in one of the top 3 schools in Thailand. (Be careful what you ask for…..)
But some days, I seriously find myself questioning why I’m doing this particular Master’s because it’s tough, expensive, and just a lot of work. I mean, I’ve asked around…..what other places put you through a process that is as rigorous as my UCAS applications PLUS youtube auditions? Probably none. The teachers, however, are the best people I’ve met so far. Dr Or continues to inspire me every single lesson. His experience, his philosophy, the essence of who he is as a person and a teacher makes me want to be a better human being and teacher too.
It’s also extremely convenient that as I am trying to waddle through this paper on Carl Seashore – great guy, would probably love him if I met him in real life but applied psychology to music is not ma thing – that these verses came to mind. And for today, they’re very real because my final undergrad thesis paper was a shambles and I’m stuck in the memory of that. (Well why wouldn’t it be cuz I changed topic at the last minute and churned out 10,000 words in 7 days practically not eating and sleeping….) Part of me is like STOP putting it off Steph. The other part of me is like I got this, ‘sall good.
Famous last words that I will regret if it’s just all talk and no action.
12 Not that I have already obtained this or am already perfect, but I press on to make it my own, because Christ Jesus has made me his own. 13 Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.
(Excuse the random-ness, but this song is still so good after all these years!)
learn and live 